January 2011
2 posts
The night to end all nights.
Somehow I’ve known. Deep down, I knew.
Things were over before they began.
The curse was there before we even knew.
The curse was there before it even began.
One night, two nights, ten nights, go.
Play the game until it can no longer be played.
But you know, that’s me.
Until the wheels fall off.
Until it all goes to shit.
I’ll be there for the end, until the very fucking...
December 2010
8 posts
Love.
You may think you can love, but can you love?
Say yes.
I want to cry so bad it hurts.
Fear
I sit next to a space heater, and as it warms me, i wonder,
is it normal to be this fearful?
Does my fear inhibit me?
Does my fear steal from me?
Does my fear hold me down? Perhaps, scare me away?
Does fear rule my existence?
So many questions, yet not one answer.
Glow
Swaying in the night
With the orange glow of Christmas lights
The stars few and far between
Behind the bright glow of the San Fernando lights
Our cigarettes glow like fireflies
that sway in the night
I'll be your mirror.
Excuse my dramatic mood. Just thought Id share my thoughts on the moment. Cliche, yes.
I feel so scared, terrified really. I’ve let the wall down and now I am not sure I am able to bring it back up. Or maybe it was never really there. Maybe it was just a figment of my imagination all along, just there to appease my mind.
I feel so scared. So scared I almost cannot move.
...
"But I'm damaged bad, at best." -Elliott Smith
I was recently turned on to Black and Mild. This is what I am smoking now, sitting in the yard considered the back. My one life stand (Hot Chips’ ingeniousness) is sitting next to me, and his housemate Chris is genuinely, the Shiz.
That was written last night, while intoxicated. Now, I am in bed. It is 7:08am. The fifth dimensional fractal bird construct is beginning to orchestrate itself....
November 2010
6 posts
New Yoykers.
I have recently come to the conclusion that New Yorkers are far ahead of Californians. Look what the shit they’re reading:
I have no idea what this book is about. However, I felt compelled to share it with you for whatever reason. The title is nice.
My significant other is whining about his desire for tequila and for me to get into the bathtub. It is 10am, and I am almost positively sure...
My un-stuck day in time.
By 8pm tonight my mom and brother were driving me home from dinner. And I felt this weird sensation inside. The best way i can describe it is, possibly, high blood pressure? I literally felt like my heart was going to pop.
I can’t really explain to you why I am writing this. It will not make any sense, I can almost guarantee. But here it goes.
This morning was a mess. I woke up late,...